After 120days of no PMO(except 1 P and M without O) I started self massaging.
I posted about this here (just FYI not necessary to read)
Like I wrote there, I fantasized a bit. Now, I know this self massage things is not for getting an erection and you are not supposed to fantasize. We discussed about this on the link above and this post is not about that.
I noticed when I fantasized, my fantasy didn't include any porn scenes. It was a bit surprising to me. To be honest when I was with my ex, to get even an slight erection I had to fantasize about porn scenes. But now, my "fantasy" is more about making out with a girl I know, someone is touching my penis etc. It's not me being the third person, but I'm actually in it, if you know what I mean.
Has anyone experienced that?
Do you think this is a good sign that my brain is starting to want a "real" sexual relationship though this is fantasy?
(I still couldn't get a full erection and I decided not to keep going with fantasy.)
Any input is appreciated.