Hopefully you folk will redirect me but I don't think I have a porn addiction, I think it's more like a voyuerism addiction. Yes I have viewed porn but not on a regular basis. It started with magazines of course, back in my early teens. I am in my 70s and happily married but I was always interested in what females wore under normal clothes.
I have been arrested for having illegal images on my computer and now serving a community order with supervision and probation. The illegal images were actuall nudist/naturist nature but of pre-puberty girls, but in searches on the internet videos of bathroom, bedrrom, changing room scenes with mature females,I was side tracked, as you do to sites where very young girls posed either innocently or not.
In my natural and wide reaching curiosity for everything, not just sexual, I did look at various sites and inadvertantly stored some images, hence the illegal ones, only about 30 or so. This last phrase could becalled minimalising I am told by the probation office and suppose it isand I have learned mindfullness and empathy in my weekly sessions with them.
I am now a determined non voyuer, non peeper in the streets, in pubs, wherever there are females, wher that grabbed me I woulld be looking for VPL, bra straps, stocking tops, anything that grabbed me. I got to be a dab hand at faking photos I downloaded of celebs etc puttilng them in odd situations, purely by altering their body shapes etc..
I also found about some very clever small video cameras suitable for attaching to bike helmets for action initially for our skiing holidays, but on seeing how small and easy they were I rigged one in our bathroom aimed at the toilet when I knew we had some tasty female visiting. I also hid it in a bag and went on the street to catch upskirts videos whicl in market checkout etc.
This was all found on my computer which has been destroyed by the police.
I am desperately ashamed, full of remorse and not likely to chance anything in reoffending. I can't talk to other men who are in the same way as me, until I found Gary Wilson's article in the Sunday Times, hence my contact here and plea for help in dicussing my case.