This post may seem a little strange or maybe not.. I consider myself a christian and i attend this weekly prayer gathering before church every Sunday. I thought it a good idea to become better friends with a girl there cause i liked her energy. I didn't have a sexual interest but I wanted to see what would happen anyway. I thought a possible relationship could develop. What ended up happening was she told me she liked someone else and i was a little hurt but i got over it and continued to attend the group as well as she. I would say 2 and a half weeks later i felt fine about it and figured that it was no big deal because i didn't have a sexual interest anyway and could find someone who had all qualities. However the very next day I had powerful sexual thoughts about her (as if we were together having sex). The thoughts re-occured over the next several weeks and seemed to only get stronger. It felt like we were together in my mind having sex or simply karezza related sex and it was more powerful then any other sexual experience i had.. Basically i started to feel immense attraction in my mind towards a girl who rejected me. Each week returning to prayer group was kind of tense, I figured she was also having those thoughts and it would be tense because of a tendency to wait till sex after marriage in Christianity. Plus there is a block in terms of communication. I haven't asked her out again and here we are 7 months later and these thoughts keep re-occuring and its a little bit unhealthy because i often masturbate when i think of them. Almost every time i think about sex she enters the picture. We still see each other every week for this Christian prayer group and she is not seeing anyone (whoever this guy she said she liked over me). What do you guys think about this? I basically feel a large sexual attraction towards a Christian girl who is probably guilty about anything sex related and is difficult to talk to in an honest way. Not sure what to do here but i've asked others for prayers to at least let go of the obsessive sexual thoughts or something.. Thanks for reading.