Hi all, I see plenty of new usernames here! A shame to see some of the members I first started with leave, but positive to see they have improved so much!
I'm PMO free for 105 days now.
I MO'd to sensation only 8 days ago, with some cravings since but fairly manageble.
I feel really flat, unsociable, awkward, and fed up. I'm struggling to formulate sentences and feel like I am presenting myself as a bumbling fool.
I met up with a female friend at her friend's place last night too, and she wanted to go to bed, and I wasn't sure where it was heading. I had said I probably wouldn't stay the whole evening as I felt a bit run down and drained.
I just wanted to go home and sleep so I left. Thing is I don't particularly want to have sex with her (Looks and just a lack of wanting to get physically intimate with her), and am quite happy to just be friends. I felt really awkward and anxious as I didn't feel very manly!
A couple of days before that I had a really vivid dream about being with a stunning girl that made me really happy.
I'm just a bit confused by what's going on in and out of my head, and venting really.