Whenever i masturbate and ejaculate, i feel sap. I feel i lost quite amount of energy. I feel slow, no drive, no passion. Then, the next day, i feel lethargy. I don't have any drive, or even willingness to do anything that needs to be done. Let alone the feeling to accomplish something. You know, all the things you want to do or achieve in live.
The feel of remorse after doing that. Added by the feeling of uselessness because i don't have any drive to better my life or myself as an individual.
Now, i quite feel the similar fashion whenever i am edging. Although not quite as heavy as masturbation. So edging kinda feel like a lite version of masturbation.
My plan is quit doing it step-by-step.
Like once a week, then once per-2 week, then once a month. Without porn of course.