So I am on the road to recovery from past porn / sex addictions, and I have a couple childhood memories that are recently haunting me. As a kid you experiment with your sexuality, but these two really bother me. Here they are:
1. I remember spying on my sister as a kid when she was getting in the shower. I peeked underneath a crack in the door, and could see in the reflection from the floor. I couldn't see much, but do remember seeing some glimpses of her boobs, which excited me. I did this a few times.
2. I remember letting the family dog lick my balls while I masturbated. Again, did this a few times.
So now it's probably 10 years later. I haven't lived at home with my family for 6 years, but right now these memories have come back in full force. It's probably because my sister is in town for the holidays, and my parent's are getting a new dog right now. I feel it's really bothering me and affecting my self esteem.
My question is, how do I let go so these memories don't bother me? Is this normal? Has anyone else done creepy things that they regret? Maybe just venting them on here will help. My main worry is that I have a date today, and I don't want these negative thoughts bringing me down and ruining the mood with this new girl. Thanks!