I haven't been on this site for a while and I have a lot of things to say about what has happened during this year. At the beginning of the year I was shy, insecure, depressed and anti-social and looking back now I can see that I'm an entirely different person now.
A little background on me, I was never a popular kid, I couldn't talk to girls (I didn't have any friends that were girls) and I only had about 2 close friends. I was always telling myself that my life was worthless and I had suicidal thoughts for a very long time. I always wondered why my life was the way it was, until I started noticing a pattern: Whenever I watched porn or masturbated I would always get what seemed to be 'bad luck', so what I did was I decided to try and stop masturbating for 2 weeks and see what happened, this turned out to be the best decision of my life.
During the 2 week period that I abstained, I met a girl who is now a really great friend of mine, this was the first time that I ever went up to a girl and talked to her and I was really shocked that I wasn't nervous and I was so confident while talking to her, we talked to each other everyday after that until I had a wet dream and I started to be distant and I felt the way I felt before I abstained. This was a bad thing and a good thing, it was bad because it made her back away from me a bit but it was good because I had proof that porn and masturbation had a negative impact on my life. Needless to say me and this girl are very good friends now.
I also found that I was able to talk to people (guys and girls) a lot better when I abstained and I am proud to say that I now have a girlfriend (my first proper girlfriend) and she's absolutely beautiful. Before when my life was miserable I always thought I would never find someone and that no one could love me but now my confidence has just sky rocketed I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am. 2011 has been a year of great change for me and I am very much looking forward 2012 and the years to come.
Also thank you everyone on this site for all your help and support! Happy New Year, I wish you all the best.