This is my fourth go at abstinence from masturbation... and I finally gave up the porn too because I think it was making things much more difficult than they needed to be... you have to do both at once.
I am used to waking up thinking of sex and "ready to go" but that has not happened the last couple days. I simply don't think about sex when I wake up. And when I do think about it it doesn't stay on my mind as much. I find myself thinking of affection with women more than sex with women. I'm not used to that. I ALSO find myself thinking about my underlying fear of intimacy, which I haven't before. I'm coming to terms with why I put up emotional walls around women. Normally, I'd just be thinking of sex instead.
I can't remember the last time I didn't wake up thinking about naked women. Which is kind of funny, but I'm in my early 30s so it has probably been several years. This whole time I was in withdrawl from dopamine?
One thing I'm feeling too which I haven't in a long time is extremely ambitious. Could that have something to do with it? I seem to have more good feelings about my future and my abilities in life which have not been so present in my life before.
But with the good comes the bad, I also find myself feeing more tired than normal certain times of the day, just really lethargic. I was hoping it would pass by the "magic" 14 day cycle, but since most of those days I looked at porn so perhaps I have more detoxing to do.