Well, this is my first post here.. But I am not new in this community.. I have been visiting this website from past 1-1.5 years.
I will tell something about myself:
I am 20 years old computer engineer & I am pure atheist (proudly) .
I have read many blogs by Marnia & I really wish to thank her a lot
for helping me to get my life back on track. There is an ancient
practice (lifestyle) in Indian culture called "Brahmachaarya" (Complete
abstinence for the purpose of knowledge) & being science worshiper,
I ignore any Idea that contradicts science.
My sudden success??
Well, right from my schooldays, I was "average".. But I was different.. I always loved science from my childhood & I always told all my friends & relatives that I wanted to be a scientist.
I used to believe in God due to my family background but as I got older, I started challenging my own views about world & realized that Concept of God was nothing but childhood brainwashing or it was another form of "Fear". ( Marnia has mentioned that many of the guys trapped in the dopamine roller coaster had no religious background )
Around the age of 14, I suddenly became one of the "toppers" in my batch with no extra efforts! ( I wasn't masturbating that time. ) I always got higher ranks & I started my engineering degree ).
When I started masturbating, I suddenly became "Average" again!
How I realized "the truth" about masturbation?
I have been masturbating from 3 years once or more per day!
As my rank started going down, I checked for the major lifestyle change I did : Masturbation!
From past 3 years I have googled a lot to find out any connection between orgasms & my poor performance.. all the sexologists, all kinds of "experts", reputed websites were saying that masturbation once a day is normal & nothing is "Evil" about it. The only stuff I found was some religious websites having 3 "God"s in every sentence!! (No need to say I ignored them)
I found a chapter in "Think & grow rich" about sexual transmutation & I got interested in this topic.. still I didn't get any positive response from any "Expert" that was in harmony with my experience.
I found reuniting.info..!!
I read all the Marnia's blogs on the topic & like most of the members in this community I got a feeling that Marnia blogged "My Story"... 100% in harmony with my experiences!
I read all the scientific blogs explaining about dopamine/oxytocin cycle.. I verified all those things & I knew it was the moment of "Enlightment"
About my experience of 23 days...
Well,... I cant describe in words...
Thanks a lot Marnia... This knowledge is going to help me for rest of my life..
Some differences I noticed are..
1. Clarity of thoughts.
2. I got my enthusiasm back!
3. No more "cravings"
4. In general, more "mind control"
5. Less procrastination
6. Very less fatigue
7. Reduction in social anxiety ( I never liked to mix up with people, but for past 3 years, I was unable to even tolerate people.. even the concept of being in the crowd used to freak me out 23 days back.. Now I can be in crowd for hours... still I don't find it interesting to spend time with people.. But I never did!)
well, there are many things worth mentioning..
This has really been a very long post, but I am writing this just to free my mind & to feel better & I really wanted to say thanks!
The first week was very difficult for me to control, but I started having more control over my mind after that...
I have some questions about dopamine cycle though..