I’ve been reading posts on this site for a few months now, but this is my first post.
First off, I’d like to say how much this site has helped me so far. I’ve always considered stopping masturbating and after reading the posts on this site, I realize that it’s worth it.
Second, and brief introduction: I’m a 19 year old male who has been masturbating almost daily for about 5 years. I am currently single.
I tried abstaining for a while and I couldn’t break out of the weekly cycle. After orgasm, I would feel down and listless for 2-3 days, and by day 4-7, I would start to feel more energetic, more lively, more social, etc. I finally broke out of the weekly cycle. On days 10-18ish, I felt almost no urge to orgasm or masturbate at all and for the most part, I’ve been more social, although I lacked motivation. I just didn’t feel motivated to do anything I needed to do.
Days 18 until now (day 23), I have felt more of the urge, but have resisted it. Also, I have been anxious. I just can’t sit still and I feel like there is something I should be doing, but I still have no motivation to do anything (simple things like cleaning my room, homework, etc.) and it feels like I’m constantly worried about something. Some nights, I don’t sleep much at all. Not because I CAN’T sleep, but because I don’t WANT to sleep. Other nights, I fall asleep fast and I can’t wake up in the morning.
I feel that I could go crazy (and maybe I already am), but I don’t want to give up.
I wanted to see if anyone has experienced the things I’ve been going through and, if anyone’s made it past this mark, what it feels like. Also, I had a few questions to ask:
I’ve gone 23 days without a wet dream. Then again, I’ve never had one because I’ve been masturbating for years. Is it normal to not have wet dreams?
I understand that for a full “reset of the brain” it takes 6-8 weeks. Will I be able to tell when my brain has reset itself? How will I be able to tell?
A few times, I’ve started masturbating, almost to the point of no return, but then I stop myself, without orgasm/ejaculation. Will this cause the dopamine roller coaster to start back over again?
Thanks a bunch, everyone. This site has helped me so much.