I’ve been following this forum for exactly a month now and I have found the information on the site and the stuff shared on the forums really useful. It’s given me hope in dealing with something I thought to be my fate in life.
From the age of 18 years old I started watching gay male pornography. I’m now almost 24 years old, never had a girlfriend, and I usually masturbate once every couple of days.
For the last month I have been trying abstinance from ejaculation and I’ve only managed to do it for 1 week periods. During abstinance I became anxious and unable to relax myself, I got headaches and I didn’t sleep well. Generally, I felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown. However despite this, I have been acting more confidently and I had a more healthy self view.
Today I looked at porn again to ejaculate. I feel like crap now. I wish I was not addicted to homo porn because it makes me feel like such a worm.
I want to start dating girls but I always think that it’s somehow peversly wrong for someone with my disposition to have a girlfriend. What do you guys think about that?
Anyway, Im gonna aim for a month without ejaculation. It’s gonna be hard because of the anxiety and the headaches. Wish me luck!
Thanks for reading guys.