Ok so let me give you an update. Recently i had a couple relapses. However i decided it was time to really make the huge committment 100 percent. Things were getting better, but not where i wanted them. My goal in all of this has been to gain my sex drive back toward real women.
So i'm again 3 weeks in. This time i changed strategy. First off anytime i thought of anything related to porn, on the basis of something listed on this site, i think of something else for a little while. As time has gone on by doing this, its become easier and easier not to think about porn. Even little buzz words that would get me aroused when i was looking at porn don't have the same effect as well. The second thing, unlike past attempts, i decided to quit the MB for at least 2-3 months. I don't necessarily think the occational MB is the problem, again if done on occation. However during recovery i have come to realize it does set one back some if they aren't fully recovered yet.
So three weeks in, i'm feeling good. Real women have become much more appealing, things continue to improve. However i know things aren't 100 percent yet. Its kind of frustrating. While there is certainly great improvement, there is still that pull of pornography. Certain images pop up in my head once in a while and they still arouse me, which is kind of frustrating. I feel like i'm stuck in the middle somewhere, between porn and real life women.
My question is, as i had mentioned, over just 3 weeks the porn thoughts have become less and less, which is great, but over time do they start to fade even more? I have read on this site and others in recovery that abstaining for even longer periods of time produced even greater results. So i'm hoping i can experience the same. I am commited to getting this stuff out of my head. No matter how long it takes. I know sometimes to break habits it takes time, and thats what im doing here. If i can multiply the results i've seen the past 3 weeks, i'll def be happy.