I'm really confused. When I went for four weeks without orgasm it was HORRIBLE. The first two weeks were fairly easy but after 2 or 3 weeks it was physically painful, nonstop. I thought after two weeks I was supposed to feel better but instead all I feel is tense and horrible. I don't have (or want) a partner right now and so karezza type things are out of the question. I'm just tired of being miserable. Masturbation makes me miserable because I hate what I have to think about to get off (and it can be physically painful since I'm a woman and do penetration) but not getting to do it at all is awful too. I can't go back to doing it. I know that. But when does it get better? When does it stop being awful? Can a person actually exist and function without ever having sexual release of any kind? Can giving up masturbation when karezza isn't an option actually work or is it just a losing battle?