My name is *** and Im 20.
I found this site recently while I was searching for some info to help me with a problem im not sure i even have. I recently started opening myself up to the world after years of shying away from it due to crippling anxiety and irrational fears. I was just finding my emotions again and how to react to them.I started making friends toward the end of my high school year and even made a nice little social life for myself. Along with my new life I managed to get a boyfriend who at the time seemed caring. I told him about my issues and he understood. We took things slow he talked more as I listened and he didnt mind it at all. We ended up dating for about 5 months before I caught him cheating on me. He explained that since I wouldnt open up to him emotionally he knew that I would never open up to him physically.
I couldnt really blame him because this was true.
Im not trying to ramble so I'll just get to my question.
Is it strange to not want any physical contact with anyone? I have had times where I craved it but the feeling passes so quickly I dont even know I felt it till I look back on it later. I would like to be able to open up to people and have a relationship. I feel that I am ready for it but after this happened with my bf i find myself thinking i am not.
if anyone can help me it would be appreciated. if theres anything you need me to clear up just let me know.