Hi first i would like to say that i'm grateful for such a supportive and informative site that is helping me understand myself.
I've been abstaining from p,o,m for almost 8 weeks but unfortunately gave in to m and o, though it wasnt due to porn. After that i did it again the next day. Both times, i felt frustrated with not being able to meet my goal. My goal was simply(or not?) to have a wet dream, something i've never experienced before. After some time, i begin to wonder why is my body reacting in such a way.
I could control my abstinence to porn during the 8 weeks. However, my urge to masturbate started happening in the mid 3rd week and never stop. Sometimes i will stroke it but stop after a few seconds after reminding myself of my goal. But this constant urge was wearing me down and i gave in towards the end of the 8th week.
Some background info.. I'm 20yrs old, never been in a relationship and i started viewing porn and subsequently masturbating and orgasm at the age of 11. I never had a wet dream before, probably because i started masturbating before my puberty and hence my body didnt see the need for that. (Please correct me if i'm having a wrong idea here) My p,m,o peaked at 6-8 times a day at around the age of 15 or 16yrs old. Before i found this site, i would view porn and m/o averaging once a day.
I would like to clarify some issues after reflecting on my past effort on abstinence of p,m,o.
- Is my goal of having a wet dream realistic, as i think it would be a motivation as i've never had it before?
- I feel like my addiction is more towards masturbation/orgasm than porn as i feel the constant urge to masturbate and orgasm, although this may be caused indirectly from my past addiction to porn??
- What methods/solutions can i adopt if i was to change my goal to... 'curbing my urge to m/o'? I would still like to experience wet dream though
I thank you for spending time off your busy schedule to help me clarify this issues that's bugging me currently.