I took a little porn holiday so that my 3 week mark would coincide with my band's first gig. Having read about the confidence and radiance that has surfaced in people at that point I thought it would be an interesting experiment and help me to be on point and sexy when I get to perform in front of some people. I didn't really feel guilty after my binge but spent, depressed, empty. Interestingly, on day one I had a very inspiring rehearsal with the band and went out afterwards feeling all kinds of shiny and had some good positive interactions as the "new me." I have to say there's been a cumulative effect of my abstinence trials that's given me a boost even in the first days after a binge. Regardless, I'm still set on achieving three weeks as that was often mentioned as a significant landmark in the benefits compilation.
I had another unpleasant dream that woke me up around 3:30. This is becoming a pattern in the first few days.