This diary starts at Day 41:
NO P, M,O.
No intercourse ( only once on the day 30th with wife)
No wet dreams.
And no loss of semen at all !
But wondering whether I should discuss the method I used. I have this apprehension because I feel my method does not constitute any bonding. However a deep sense of compassion is cultivated for my wife.
Here I go anyways:
Methods used to channel my mind off sex and porn:
Taking an Oath that I wont watch porn or masturbate for twelve years from now. ( With the intention to cleanse myself and practice brahmacharya to the fullest, this period is mentioned in indian sacred texts as special and creates a special channel for prana called the medha nadi)
What did i do when I saw women ?
1. Contemplating on the impermanence of the body. (Asubha bhavana from Budda's method)
2. Considering all women as either mothers or sisters except my wife.
3. Thinking about a genderless soul residing both in me and her alike.( "Om eka sat chit anannda atmaha" from swami shivanada)
In the absence of the above three method, in earlier attempts I found (though I could mange abstinence for about 15 days ), eventually semen discharged inadvertently.
With the above three practices I could develop compassion towards woman and this created an atmosphere of warmth, in the place of fear of regress.
These methods are believed to render the semen thicker and thereby stop it from descending downwards.
Practice in this direction is belived to make the seminal energy move upwards making a new nadi called medha nadi in the body which bestows unsurpassed concentration and memory power.
I am willing to elaborate on these method if any one wishes to know more.
I will also let you know what happened in the past 41 days in the follwoing threads.
You could also read my earlier threads to know about my background.