I’m 8 days in. I’m getting all this emotional stuff coming up and I’m doing my best to address it. I realise that I’m touch deprived. It makes me really sad …I feel like the most untouched person in the world. That’s probably why I’m so drawn to cats.
A Problem: when some people touch me I immediately begin to sexualise it in my mind. Then I get embarrassed and the other person probably senses that too. Hopefully when I get porn off the brain I’ll be able to stop sexualising everything. It’s stupid…sometimes I’m talking to a girl or a guy and I start to imagine them in pornographic positions. Or Im talking to a girl and I suddenly think that she wants to have sex with me. These thoughts make me blush and make girls act really awkward around me.
I’ve had some good friends who are pretty tactile. However, in my present situation I don't get much touch. It makes me feel really lonely and stink. Ideally I’d like to find a girl for some huggin’ and lovin’…
Do you guys ever feel touch deprived? Any advice?