Had a huge breakthrough over the past couple days. My erection strength has actually diminished since I MO'd on day 40, but my social confidence has been steadily improving throughout. I'm feeling more dominant than I have ever felt in my life, period. I think it is a combination of two things: I am conserving my testosterone and sexual energy instead of flushing it down the drain on the daily, and I am finally internally congruent with my belief system. I'm winning a battle I've been fighting a while. I am following a path of courage and I am loving with integrity.
This weekend I went clubbing, and I wanted a connection. I think when you put out a vibration into the universe, it resonates and returns to you. I cleaned my energy from porn, and so I got different energies in return. I was receptive and I got a lot of attraction. I remember going out in the past, and I would be closed off, and generally not even motivated to chase after women. A lot of the time I'd hook up with a girl just because my friends were doing it and I felt pressured that it would be "the right thing" to do. I never knew a different reality from this. No time to get into details but going out was completely different this time.