Day 30 of no PMO. I was watching some drama flick when for a brief moment it showed woman nude dancing in a strip club scene. I got this rush and my heart started pounding like it was ready to pop out my chest. I then shut off that movie and watched something else. I barely even looked at the woman and I got all these flashbacks. I get this "rush" way too much from every day situations. A curvy woman on a beer advertisement in the liquor store? A cute asian woman in a movie? A pretty woman in a commercial? Everytime... I get that feeling... like Dopamine is being released into my blood stream. Is this normal? Would I feel this way If i never looked at porn? Did porn permanently screw up my thought process? AHHhhhhhhh I hate it.
PS. I have been addicted to porn for 10+ years, so I guess I shouldnt expect drastic changes in 30 days.