Hello to everyone :)
My question here is how would masturbation to a real potential partner affect my recovery.
I have not watched porn for a over 40 days but I have been occasionally masturbating to a real possible partner.
Over the last 40 days i masturbated without orgasm thinking of this person (maybe 9-10 times).
Yesterday however, although i did not want to, i ejaculated in the process.
I tried to hold back when i felt that orgasm was imminent but unfortunately it was too late and i ejaculated.
This has made me sad and i am not sure how it has affected my recovery.
Is it actually bad to masturbate while thinking of someone (with or without orgasm)?
I have not been thinking about anything crazy or any porn related stuff.
Just this girl and real possible scenarios of lovemaking between me and her.