So I made it past two weeks, today marks probably the 20th time I've got this far, usually I relapse around the 3rd-4th week, either through sex or porn. My girlfriend has agreed to put our sex life on hiatus until around mid October, when I will have done 9/10 weeks ish, I think thats a decent enough mark, since people seem to be rebooting at 6-8 weeks on average.
I've been with reuniting for 1 year and 9 weeks, during that time I've learned a lot about this addiction and how all of our stories differ in ways, but at their core, they are all exactly the same. I've seen people recover, come and go, some people even rebooted on their first try, others are still pushing onward like myself.
But, one thing I strongly believe is that even though over the last year I've relapsed MANY times, the times I didn't, the weeks, days, hours and minutes I resisted have culmanated and helped me recover to the extent where my erections have improved, I no longer have severe ED, but sensitivity is still a bit of an issue, I still don't feel all that much during sex, this does improve the longer I go without porn though, so rebooting will likely fix that completely. (I hope! Anyone care to chime in on the penis sensitivity issue?)
Avoiding transexual porn and fantasies has completely obliterated my arousal for it, like literally, there is nothing for it anymore. I remember the "feelings" I got from it, but they just aren't there anymore. It's hard to believe that two years ago, I had gotten to a stage where the main thing that got me off was transexual porn, but now Its hard to put into words how the change has occured, arousal for real women has boosted to a level I'd forgotten due to years of viewing porn.
I'm stronger than I was last time, I can feel it. Just have to stay focused!