I've been decreasing my amount of porn and masturbation heavily since I found this website about one year ago. Before that I masturbated to porn almost every day, sometimes several times a day. I've also had a lot of casual sex in my days. I'm 27 years old.
I've experienced alot of benefits by cutting down PMO heavily. I'm way more clearheaded, less headaches, alot more easy to keep focus when sozialising and enjoyt it too. My face look way much better compared to how it looks the week after a masturbation marathon in front of porn (which could happend when hangover etc). So the benefits are great and life becomes so much better when not suffering from orgasm-hangover and a dopaminespeeded brain which makes me impulsive and immature.
I stayed at the the point where I masturbated to porn about ever second week, and I usually binged and spent the whole day doing it. For a long time. Even if thats not good its way better to do it like that once every two-three weeks than before. So I developed but I couldn't get in total balance and live up to my goal which was once, without porn every third-forth week. It was very hard getting there and I never did actually. I've stopped the binging now though. When I masturbate these days I do it ONCE and not more often than once a week or second week. So there is an overall progress. Now I just need to remove the porn and try to hold a little longer.
The problem is that I'm so used of emptying myself total when I do it so I don't feel that one single masturbation is enough to relieve my sexual tension and frustration. I think about sex ALL THE TIME (except from when I spend time with my family) and its really frustrating. I look very good (get alot of looks, comments and flirts from girls) and its making it so much harder. I get accounts on dating-sex-sites and spend hours and hours of mailing (trying to hook up girls) and then chating with them on MSN where we talk about all the dirty things we wanna do with each other. Maybe play in the webcam too.
This behaviour of mine is so frustrating and it makes me feel very unhappy. I can't focus on school (which is very important that I do) because when I study at home there is always the temptation on going online and try to catch girls on the dating-sites and when I'm at the university I just go around and flirt with and look at all the beautiful girls. And since they look back at me I obviously fantazise alot about what I wanna do with them, and then I can't focus on the studying.
I can't even just lie home and watch TV without feeling temptated on going online and search for sex on datingsites. Its the temptation all the time that is there and if I for example would sell my computer, turn of internet or block these sites I would feel so empty and unhappy.
I'm just in a part of my life where I wanna have a serious relationship but I'm too shattered and sexobsessed to be serious. Or maybe I havn't just met the right one. Even so I wanna learn how to be relaxed and feel good and happy when I'm alone at my home and not lie and feel horny, sexually frustrated and unhappy while watching TV without concentrating nor feeling happy and high while spending hours at the sex-dating sites. I wanna be able to sit and study for hours withouth thinking about sex and getting unfocused ALL THE TIME.
This isn't easy. I'm not happy in my life even though I have all the possibilites in the world to be happy. Maybe someone who reads this can give me some input. Just felt for venting.