I have just decided I am going to manifest a karezza relationship in my life. Of course I have spoken of my interest in karezza before. But I now realize I have to take a stronger approach to actually bringing such a relationship about. As a recovering PMO addict I have lived very much in my fantasies my entire life when it comes to sex- so thinking I was going to have a karezza partner was really kind of a vague dream-like thought, without much substance- maybe that's why I attracted a woman interested in S&M in my last relationship- about as far away from karezza as you can get. And the woman I met recently, I'm sad to say, probably is not going to be my karezza partner: the one time we met she told me she was actively putting a curse on a certain person who had offended her- as in voodoo- again, this is likely not a woman who is going to be right for karezza. Plus she is leaving in November for the winter. I am thinking of something Darryl said at one point, that thru our thoughts we create the world we find ourselves in and the circumstances we attract- this is both a daunting and an empowering realization for me to come to. The important thing tho is that I see I have not been concrete or committed enough to karezza to actually experience it in my life- that is what this post is about, a determination now to decisively commit myself to bringing about a karezza relationship in my life, with this community as my witness. I need to give credit to "studentoflove" who inspired me tremendously today with his descriptions of his new karezza experiences with his girlfriend- hearing that showed me that I am living too much in a fantasy realm (leading to porn viewing over the last 3 weeks) and that a whole new world of true, vital, connected, nurturing love awaits me readily right around the corner if I will only determine to make that my reality- well, I am making that my reality as of this post, and I am sharing my intention with this community as a first step in promising to myself that I will create a karezza relationship with a wonderful woman in my life soon.