I've been trying to detox on & off for 2 years now, nice to find this community.
I'm 24, & have been masturbating since I was about 7. Been masturbating using the technique I use now since about 13. I have no one in my life right now, nor have I ever had a proper partner, & generally feel a bit down about who I am as a person. I like how I look, I'm happy with my material achievements, but I'm pretty shy, low key & get sick of people quickly which makes developing a meaningful relationship hard. I also consider myself pretty stupid in a lot of areas, which causes me shame & doesn't help.
Anyway. I'm addicted to sex. I've had quite a few drunken one night stands & visited a lot of hookers, but my main addiction is pornography. It has such a powerful hold on me. I'll wake up, & almost immediately grab for my laptop which is under my bed, & start masturbating. Unless I have a nice session before bed, I can't sleep. I'll edge- a masturbation session will never go for under an hour, it will normally go for 2. If I go without for 3 days +, I start getting very agitated. My mind gets foggy, I become even more introverted than normal & more unsure of myself, but also very, very horny. I don't like the person I am then ... walking around, so many pretty women, I feel like I'm surrounded by a sea of flesh & I just get a huge urge to masturbate, & need release badly. I can't concentrate on anything at all. The easiest thing is often to just go visit a hooker. I have a fair hunk of disposable income, so the ease of doing this has become a real problem.
I've enjoyed reading through this site, & am looking forward to trying again. But it's so, so tough. Once I'm into day 5 without orgasm, I can barely think of anything else. I can't sleep, I can't concentrate, I just need to get off. I'm going to update this thread daily to see how I go this time. Honestly, with the extra stress of exams I'll be surprised if I even get past tonight. Here's hoping.