Welcome to The Light of Virtue, my blog regarding my recovery process from being a masturbation/pornography addict to a virtuous Stoic. I will introduce myself briefly here to give you an idea of my belief system.
I am a 16-year-old male and I have been addicted to pornography and masturbation since I was 12. After I made out with a girl I knew (when I was 13 years old), and after she "dumped" me, I refused to pursue any considerable contact with girls. Since then I have been an addict (by action; I was probably an addict before that, mentally). As a teenager, it is very difficult to overcome an addiction once it has set in at a "peak stage" such as that of beginning of puberty, because the perceptions formed then remain fixed and cannot be rooted out without serious effort. Moreover, there are other issues that produce anxiety, lack of self-esteem, depression, and other typical teenage problems. These problems are by no means excuses or causes of failure in recovery from addiction, but they are factors of mental stability of a teenager. However, I am fortunate to discover about my addiction and why it is wrong at this stage of my life, allowing me to decide proactively the course of my future life.
By nature's grace I have been fortunate to be a good thinker -- this has contributed immensely towards forming my philosophical outlook on life, which I have based on Stoicism [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stoicism]. Honour is at the heart of such a belief system -- the objective is to make honour the most important factor, not temporary/short-lived emotional impulse.
This blog is titled "The Light of Virtue" because light is associated with wisdom and virtue is the practice (the application) that is the result of well-founded wisdom. The phrase "The Light of Virtue" indicates the knowledge as to why one must really even consider living a virtuous life -- the door that unlocks the Path. One has to reflect, rather than thoughtlessly react, on deep questions, and this process is the key to solving life's great mysteries. The Answer lies within.
The purpose of this blog is to record my experiences to inspire myself and others in living a life of virtue. I have failed several times in overcoming addiction, and hence recovery is no guarantee, but there is plenty of hope and blessing. I decided to start a blog on my personal journey as I thought that this would give me a sense of responsibility, clarity, and an organized process of recovery in general. I certainly hope you gain tremendously from the blog. I wholeheartedly welcome all comments, suggestions, and questions.