I've received some comments lately about my approach being that of repression. I accept that I am naive and I may seem to have nothing more than a fantasy of being Stoic, but I would really appreciate it if readers could point out to me why they think my approach is that of repression. I wanted to use the words "should" and "must" in the sense that, if I don't do this, I'll face serious consequences, not as in duty or obligation. I was conscious of using should/must, but then I couldn't think of a better word -- although now I think I should have *wanted* to recover, not have to.
Anyway, today was a very nice day. I did like 15 miles of bicycling, my locality is really very bad for cycling, there are so many potholes and the people here drive crazily, and there are slopes all over the place, and my cycle isn't geared. Okay, the list could go on, but the biking episode of today wasn't pleasant, but it added to my self-esteem. I worked moderately hard today, well, harder than any of last week's days.
I really need guidance. I don't know at all if I'm following the right approach. I know that I can stretch my abstinence period to like 4 more days for sure (today is the 11th day). But then it's all becoming a question of *stretching* the abstinence period, *not complete recovery*. I've read most articles on this site (I haven't read many blog entries though), but I haven't really found an approach. I hope someone can guide me.
Thanks for your patience.