I have managed to reach 12 days of absolutely no pmo, which is something I've never done before. I have generally been feeling alot better than I was before. I have more energy than usual. I'm more focused on tasks at hand and I'm more determined to do things. I'm also finding it alot easier to read lots of material and do my work. I can definitely feel benefits from abstaining. My libido is soaring. I have had about three wet dreams in the past 10 days, and wake up with morning wood that can easily last a half hour.
However, I have been getting intense homo-erotic thoughts. I would get these while viewing porn, but it would not get to big. What I've noticed during my pmo binges is that the more I look at porn and masturbate the less I'm interested in gay porn and gay thoughts, but the less I masturbate and look at porn the more I get interested in the gay thoughts and less interested in the conventional heterosexual stuff. Now that I'm abstaining its gotten to the point where I am not that interested in heterosexual porn but have a hard time dealing with all the homoerotic stuff in my head.
I have never been in a relationship with another girl, but I consider myself straight. that is one of the main reasons I have decided to quit pmo. I am however, becoming concerned because of all the gay thoughts that I have been having.