Feeling depressed. I don't understand how people pair up. I had a lunch date last week. I felt "meh" about it. I got a girls number when I went out to see my friend's band play and she never responded. There were a couple hot, fit girls in my boxing class yesterday and I was on the verge of sobbing whenever I'd have a look at one of them. In the past when I've felt this way I'd explode, break a bunch of things, drink, and masturbate. I've masturbated kind of a lot in the past two days but with no porn and no orgasm. Now I think the urge has passed. Maybe even edging without porn causes some hangover? It's incredibly frustrating to not be able to make a connection, especially when I know that I'm talented, attractive, intelligent, hilarious, and driven. I guess I'm just gonna wait it out. Maybe another two weeks or so is all I need.